A relationship I can never keep...

I don't get it. I try, I nurture, I love, I protect, and I rarely ever forget (except for this summer... sorry). But it just doesn't work out. It never works out. For a few weeks it'll work, maybe even a few months if I'm lucky. But there is always an end, always a break. Is it me? Is it them? I feel so lost and I'm sick of starting over! And I never know who to talk about it with, I feel like no one cares when I bring it up. It sounds pretty shallow I guess, but whatever, I don't care anymore. I have to be open.

I have horrendous luck with sunglasses and I just can't ever seem to be able to do anything about it. Ever.

I was HOLDING a pair today as I walked into the library to do some HW - both of which are things I do quite rarely. Holding them. That's it. Not squeezing, nothing. All the sudden I feel something snap and fall. Half of the ear-rest-part-thingy fell off. Just broke off.

This has been happening since as long as I've been buying my own pairs of sunglasses, which was sometime in High School. I've gone through about 3-4 pairs a year. I've had 3 month periods before with 4 pairs of sunglasses alone. I set them down and they break. I hold them and they break. Every so often I'll do something stupid like sit on them. This year alone I've already gone through 4... and now I need to buy a 5th. I killed two last spring, then someone else sat on one back in early May. My favorite pair of all time was lost about 5 or 6 times on summer project (and reappeared or weren't stolen waaayyyy too many times) until finally in Beijing I set them on the bedside table and they broke. First night in the dorms freshmen year they broke by being set on a bedside table also. Luckily in Beijing though, I had a spare I brought with me - I knew my bad luck so I flew over with 2 pairs. Those finally bit the dust about 2 and a half hours ago.

So here I am. Alone in this bright bright world, afraid to look into the sky, afraid of being blinded. Okay, so I exaggerate a bit. Honestly though, I have some pretty sensetive eyes. For as long as I can remember I've been ridiculously sensitive to light. It could be an overcast day and I'll be squinting when I go outside. Sometimes I feel like I should wear them inside depending on the level of light in the room. Weird, huh? Someone with sensitive eyes shouldn't have such horrible sunglass luck.

Okay, so tomorrow I'll probably need to go buy another pair. I've never owned anything more expensive than $15... maybe that's my problem... but I'll probably just buy another cheap pair.

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I've decided that just because this blog is fuggly, it doesn't mean I should wait to write on it until it gets fawesome (made that one up, how creative am I?). I feel good about that decision.